Archive for December, 2013

OMG My Face!

I woke up yesterday morning and my face looked puffy. I hadn’t sleep very well so I figured that was it. I also over indulged and felt bloated. My mom’s 86th birthday was yesterday and we went out for dinner to a Japanese hibachi grill and had cake and ice cream afterwards. I had wheat noodles and unknown oils and non-organic vegetables and beef that was probably not grass-fed. The cake and ice cream were store-bought and filled with sugar, artificial favors and colors. Your typical American meal, tasty but so bad for you (well, me). I ate and ate and ate, crammed in as much as possible and then ate some more so when I looked puffy I wasn’t particularly surprised. What shocked me though was my skin! I was applying lotion to my face and I could feel fine bumps all over my skin! Something had made me break out. What in the world am I doing to myself?? I know I’m sensitive to certain foods yet I continue to eat them? Makes. No. Sense.

I am beyond frustrated and annoyed with myself. I havent eaten anything yet today. I’m not sure what to eat. I know I need to go on a fast to rid myself of all these toxins but I don’t want to! I want to prepare some black-eyed peas for New Year’s Day; I want to bake sugar cookies with my five-year-old… that’s what I want to do. Waah! Poor me. Whine, whine, whine… I need to get over it, I know. And I can bake cookies with her without eating any! I know this too. Why is food-well eating really-such a fun, social activity? If I lived in a remote village somewhere I wouldn’t have options and would simply be grateful for a piece of meat to go with my veggie and starch. Decorated Christmas cookies?? Am I really complaining that I can’t eat Christmas cookies? Yes I am and I need to stop.

Hoilday Season Failure And Monthly Challenges

So,  yeah, ate everything in sight. No excuses; no reason other than being downright greedy. And of course I feel awful. So, here I am six months into this and I am basically no further than I was when I started! Other than the fact that I know that wheat is bad for me and losing 3 pounds, I am nowhere closer to being fierce than I was when I started this blog. Great. You know what else I realized? There are a whole lot of other areas where I am not fierce: I suck at cleaning and organizing; I am not a patient person/parent; I complain and gossip; I don’t work out or stretch; I am not as connected spiritually as I would like; my wardrobe needs help; I have creative endeavors that I ignore due to lack of time and energy. Man, I have a TON of work to do on myself.

So here’s what I’m thinking. I want to be fierce in all aspects. (Yeah, I know, no pressure. LOL. But seriously, if not now, when??) So here is what I am proposing for myself. Come up with 12 areas of my life that I need to change and concentrate on one each month. Ideally I would keep the prior month and add on the new month’s challenge. So, for example if in January I focused on no wheat, when February’s challenge started (no sugar, let’s say) then it would really be no wheat (from January) plus no sugar (from February). Then in March I would  have three things, etc. all the way to December 2014 when I would have 12 challenges I would be working on simultaneously.

This could be really difficult. But on the other hand it could be a lot more doable if all the things I need to change are tackled individually instead of all at once. I like my idea.. now to figure out what my 12 things will be. They could be super general like work out 5 days a week to very specific like do 50 crunches every day of the month.

Hmmm… 12 things…I’m just going to do a mini brain storming before I finish up this post. Here are some things that come to mind:

1. no wheat/no sugar/only drink water/no grains, etc.

2. stretch every morning for 15 minutes/work out 5x week

Wait. These are too specific. I need broad categories. Let me try again:

1. Food

2. Exercise

3. Hobbies (understand camera aperture, write a book)

4. Spirituality (pray daily, volunteer, etc.)

5. Personal Growth (learn how to corn row for example. Hey! Do you have a daughter? Trust me, this one is huge!)

6. Attitude (like no complaining)

7.  Education

8. Parenting

9.  Organization

10. ??? 11. ??? 12. ???

Are these good? What am I missing? I  need three more.

I really, really like this plan. The only thing I am concerned about is it might be too much and too many areas to concentrate on. Perhaps I should do this but still focus on health-related goals only. I honestly don’t know!

What do you think? Please weigh in!

As if I Didn’t Know

Tis the season for holiday treats. At work my co-worker offered me some cookies. I tried to refuse but I succumbed. Ate 3 (which is actually good for me!) but I kid you not–within hours I had an enormous zit on my face and that evening I was constipated!! Sorry, TMI but WOW! So, yeah. This is good news. I already thought I knew wheat wasn’t working for me, but now I know. Hard facts but good to know. Now to work on this zit! Why oh why did it pop up right before a first date?! At least he still complimented me on my beauty. In fact, he said I look younger than my pictures (we met online) and am even more beautiful. How nice was that? With a huge zit and all. lol

Now to tackle processed foods, carbs and sugar. I know that carbohydrates break down into sugar and all these food items lead to inflammation. I especially have to get away from the boxed foods!! Eating sugar from fruit and maple syrup is fine for now and carbs from fruit and potatoes and rice are fine for now– but I really need to go cold turkey on the packaged gluten-free cookies type “food” items. Yep, fake foods and refined sugars are next to get the ax. Took me six months to internalize that wheat products were no good for me and be conscious about not eating them. I hope it doesn’t take so long for the processed foods and sugars.

Coming Along

Well, I have been gluten-free for a couple of weeks now and it’s getting much easier. I have  found some wonderful substitutes and I really don’t miss it at all. I have passed up pizza and spaghetti and cookies and cake and it hasn’t been bad at all! I haven’t been eating as healthfully as I hope to but it’s a process. And the side benefit? I have lost weight! I started out at 156 and without even trying I am down to 153! Woot! Imagine if  I actually tried–and worked out! That’s the next goal.

It’s Getting Easier

Okay, three things.

1. Trying to eat a balanced, healthy, no alcohol, sugar and gluten-free diet is not easy and it’s especially difficult during the holiday season! Duh! What was I thinking? But here’s the thing. I must have turned a corner or something because even though I haven’t been 100% or even 75% I have started to wrap my mind around the fact that it is something I have to do and I am consciously making better choices and without so much frustration and anger. Yep, that’s me–angry that I can’t buy cookies and pizza whenever I want. 🙂 So, if I am dying for the peppermint mocha I just ask for fewer shots (less sugar) and skip the pastry or sugar cookies that I would normally want to go with it. Am I sugar and gluten-free now? Not by a long shot but I am doing better!! And here’s a life saver: Gutinos! Have you tried them? They are the gluten-free version of Oreos. Too sweet so you can’t overindulge and taste almost the same. Yes, I’m trying to go with just meats, vegetables, fruits, nuts and seeds but in the meantime I will eat my gluten-free junk food as I work on my transition! Here’s the thing though. I shouldn’t be eating grains, sugar, alcohol or processed foods. My child shouldn’t be eating sugar, dairy, processed foods and she doesn’t like beef, processed meat and most vegetables. I am at a loss as to what to serve us! It’s difficult!

2. I am still dealing with chronic hip pain. No, I am still not working out but I recently learned I am very deficient in Vitamin D and have started taking supplements. Turns out that Vitamin D deficiency has been linked to chronic pain! I am curious to see if taking supplements helps me at all.

3. I whine and complain too much and this blog is dreadful. Going to only post positive changes from now on!

You’re welcome.

It’s Been a Minute

Or make that three weeks since I’ve posted. That is a damn shame. But you know what is more of a shame? That I have been eating non-stop junk and feel like crap. The pain in my hip is really, really bad and Thanksgiving was just a free for all and I am paying the price. Ugh, not fun. So  I have a new challenge for myself (AGAIN): no wheat/extremely limited grains and no sugar or alcohol til Christmas. Today was day 1 and it was okay. I created some pumpkin pancakes with pumpkin purée yogurt, oats, eggs and maple syrup. They were decent and extremely filling. Dinner was leftover baked fish, baked chicken, acorn squash with onions and cranberries and water. Need to up my water for sure. Oh wait, I almost forgot. I also had a huge juice at breakfast with kale, coconut water, beets, pineapple and apple. I saved the rest to start my day tomorrow. Plan on juicing a lot this month. I feel full and satisfied as I type this and not craving the chocolate chip cookies or the peppermint cocoa I bought yesterday from Trader Joe’s (hours before I decided to change my food intake). I may allow myself one evening to enjoy cocoa and cookies while we decorate our Christmas tree, I’m not going to lie –oh, and I may slip up when we make a gingerbread house, but the plan is to really be more conscious of what goes into my mouth. Maybe I can decorate the tree and make a gingerbread house without slipping up! Who knows? What I do know is that I am down to a year and a half to become fierce and at this rate it’s not going to happen!!