Archive for November, 2014

Okay, Make that 167!

OMG. Seriously, who gains 17 pounds in two months?! What am I, prepping for a movie role? No, I am not. I just have NO moderation. That is the bad news. The good news is I went to the doctor and I am basically healthy!!! Yes, I have massive joint pain and I am exhausted BUT it is not due to anything that she can pinpoint-like RA or something equally awful. That means, that it’s pretty freaking likely that I can get rid of this through diet and lifestyle changes (less stress, more exercise, more sleep, supplements, etc.)

I celebrated by going to Chipotle. And ordered chips and lemonade to go with my salad. Don’t ask me why. Wtf? I have been given a second lease on life basically and I am not showing how incredibly grateful I am!

But I am. I said a prayer of thanks and I know I can change this. Let me repeat that: I KNOW I CAN CHANGE THIS. I KNOW I CAN FEEL ENERGETIC AND PAINFREE. I KNOW THIS! I know this. I know this. I know this..

What Happened Here?

Hi there. Remember me? Yeah, it’s been a long time. What have I been up to? Eating. You? Yes, sadly, I am back up to 164 pounds. I kid you not. I went to Mexico for a week and gained over five pounds there alone. It was an all-inclusive and the food was off-the-chain-amazing!!! I didn’t hold back (clearly). And sadly that got me derailed and it’s been all downhill since then. Boo.

Meanwhile, I feel awful. I went to the doctor last week and had a bunch of tests run. Tomorrow I go in for the results. Reumatoid arthritis? Diabetes? Lupus? Something autoimmune for sure because my muscles and joints are in PAIN and I am exhausted.

I am so fed up and so disappointed in myself. Hopefully tomorrow’s news won’t be too awful but just awful enough to scare me straight as it’s only 7 months left until I turn 50.