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Day Three..

Today is day three and from now on I will no longer be counting days but I just wanted to get myself focused that I am on a diet of sorts, keeping track of my new way of eating. It is only 2:45 so I have a lot of the day left but just checking in to say that I have booked a vacation to Mexico for August so I better get crackin’!! We leave in less than six weeks so I have about five weeks to get myself in bikini shape. That’s a scary thought after yesterday’s post (and quite a stretch) but one can dream. I must say it is much more motivating!! My goal is to lose at least ten pounds and a few inches. Wish me luck!!


Today was a good day overall! Here’s what I ate:

Breakfast – nectarine, started drinking my first 32 oz of water

Lunch – cherries, finished water, cheese stick

Dinner – sautéed some grass-fed beef and onions in coconut oil and cumin. Ate that with plain yogurt and a slice of havarti cheese. Also, a salad consisting of Romaine, almonds, raisins,, fresh chopped basil and balsamic dressing. Oh and an orange pepper (so good!). More cherries.

That’s it! I was very tired though. At some point during the day it hit me so hard that I lay down on a pile of folded laundry on a the love seat. I was crammed into the corner in a very uncomfortable position but I was too exhausted to either move the clothes or walk up the steps to my bed. I think I slept about 10min before I got a telephone call. It’s now almost 11pm and I find myself very, very tired again. I have no sheets on my bed but I don’t think I have the energy to put them on.. zzzzzzzzzz







Always Some Excuse

So breakfast was juice and lunch was a smoothie. But the weather was cold and I was heating up lunch for my daughter.. and I broke down. I ate some cauliflower with cheddar and butter and some black-eyed peas with carrots that had been prepared using smoked turkey and chicken stock. Did I eat any grains? No. Anything processed? Not really. Anything with refined sugar? No. But I had animal products and beans which I said I wouldn’t have. Was I asleep by ten? Yes. Did I wake up early and do yoga? Yes. I am proud of what I accomplished but annoyed with myself for not sticking to my plan, especially as I look in the mirror and see my checks are still covered with hives or this rash or whatever this is.


It is winter. We got a ton of snow yesterday. I want warm food. In the movie Joe fasted when it was warm weather. So did the other guy they highlighted, Phil. I’m pretty sure it was warm when Daniel and Jesus  and Gandhi and other religious figures fasted. Who solely drinks cold juices when it’s 20 degrees outside? I’m sure people do it but gosh darn it if it doesn’t make it more difficult. Though, then again, some folks fast without any food or drink and do it when it’s 100 degrees outside. It’s done. It’s not comfortable. It’s not supposed to be easy or fun or comfortable. I think this really illuminates what kind of person I am. I want what I want when I want it. I gave in. I indulged myself. I didn’t persevere. I gave up.

I gave up.

It got too hard.

It wasn’t fair.

I did the yoga, I got some sleep. I avoided grains and sugar… so I justified eating the food. I did part of it.

But I didn’t do exactly what I set out to do.

Why not? Why was I okay with doing just a half-assed job? Or rather (because I was not okay with it) why did I give up? My skin/energy level/health are suffering! Isn’t that enough?

What is my deal?

I have no idea. This is interesting though. Depressing. Enlightening. Maddening. Infuriating! Sad.

On to Day 2. Or rather Day 1 again. Wish me luck.

General Update

Just popping in to say that I have lost weight and I am sleeping better. Not a lot of weight, no change in joint pain, energy level or anything else but it’s a start.

Starting Weight: 153

Current Weight: 152.4

Weight lost: .8  **updated:  oops! make that .6

For the record, it was more yesterday but last night I made some almond flour brownies and ate too many of them! Almonds and maple syrup should not be consumed in large quantities– for more reasons than one. I’m just sayin’.

Noticable Change

It’s only been two days but I am already feeling different. No, not just different because that takes away from how much different better I am feeling. I haven’t been feeling bloated or exhausted. Still got achy joints but really in just two days I can feel the difference. It’s awesome! Here’s what I ate today:

Breakfast: Smoothie with Romain, spinach, banana, apple; cup of coffee with cream

Snack: granola bar and cheese stick

Lunch: Salad with Romaine, golden raisins, almonds, roast beef, avocado and balsamic dressing

Dinner: carrots with olive hummus, baked chicken with salsa, 1/4 banana, 2 strawberries, 1/2 glass of Chardonnay

I also noticed that I slept through the night last night –without waking up once!– and woke up this morning without an alarm at 6:15am.

It may be too quick to notice any changes but dare I conclude that change in diet is the reason why I am feeling so much better?!


Not Attractive!

Okay, this is a warning for the squeamish. Do not read further if you are disgusted or appalled by bodies that are less than perfect. Here’s the deal: I was lying on the couch feeling fat, full and bloated when I looked down at my stomach and I was really horrified.  It is truly disgusting and I’m only posting a photo because one day I know I will be posting an “after”.  But there is more than just a grossly fat stomach at play here. I have major joint pain; I can barely walk across the floor sometimes. I am exhausted – exhausted in as in falling into a coma mid-afternoon unable to do anything productive or fun. No. energy. at. all. This is no way to live! And I can’t take it so tomorrow I am trying again. Giving up wheat because I am convinced that the joint pain is an auto immune response and sugar because it is just plain bad for you and there is no reason to eat it. Period. End of story. No more excuses!

So here goes… Feast your eyes on this. Sorry. Yuck. Maybe public embarrassment will be motivating?


(and what in the hell is that little piece on my right side?! Ew!)

So, tomorrow I am starting AGAIN! Eating clean and drinking tons of water. Really hope I can sustain it this time..

Hello, America

Being healthy is hard if you live in the United States. There is fluoride in the water, GMO “foods” sold without labels in the markets, processed food everywhere and so many overweight people that  you start to think of your extra twenty pounds as being no big deal.

I  have been eating a terrible diet for the past two weeks. I started my new job and they have been providing a lot of meals and most of it is stuff I shouldn’t be eating. It’s a shame, really. In Asian countries it’s acceptable and normal to eat rice, broth, fish and vegetables for meals with unsweetened tea or water. Americans, meanwhile, chow down on pasta with sauces, sugary drinks and desserts. Trying to choose just the salad and water when everyone around you is eating lasagna, lemonade and chocolate cake is really hard. No wonder there are so many fat people here and I am slowly becoming one of them.

This weekend is dedicated to organizing my life so health and wellness are the focus. I need more sleep, more water.  healthier foods and exercise. I don’t have a choice. How? Well, for one since I have to be at work at 7am, it’s going to be “early to bed and early to rise”. New bedtime? 9pm – or 10pm at the latest if occasionally necessary. Then I am going to unpack my overseas shipment and locate my cutting boards, juicer, etc. and start using them. I haven’t figured out yet where exercise is fitting in but the other plan is to be vegan until 6pm. Have you heard of that book? I don’t know where I first read about it but here’s the Amazon link:

The basic premise is to eat vegan (fruits, veggies, nuts and seeds specifically) until 6pm and then for dinner you can eat what you want in moderation. I think this is great! I am busy at work so I won’t have much temptation anyways but then it allows for me to go to happy hour, go on dates or hang out with friends without being on some crazy restrictive diet plan. I love it and the author had great results with it.

Now if I could only find a time and place to exercise..

Down for the Count

I’ve been away from blogging for a while because I am really sick!  Hell, I don’t know if it’s dust or dairy or stress but I feel like crap! Woke up in the middle of the night coughing, can’t sleep, sore throat, post nasal drip.. just plain run down. I haven’t eaten terribly but no energy to do much prepping and planning. Can’t wait to get well and get back on track. In preparation I have bought a food processor (for chopping nuts and dates, etc.) and a new salad spinner and exchanged my juicer because that darn thing did not like kale or celery and those are necessary components of my morning juices and smoothies. I am also excited to start working out again. Still waiting for my shipment from overseas but inside are my yoga and kettle bell tapes that I have never used but plan to when they arrive. The mindset is ready, now I just need the rest of the factors to fall into place!