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Ok, So I Didn’t Work Out But..

I got a little, teensy weensy bit closer to doing so! I actually put on gym clothes this morning – but then things got busy.

I woke up and it was snowing! What is up with that? It’s March, people! Anyway, after cleaning off my car I dropped my daughter off at spring break camp ar0und 9:00. Then I drove to my ophthalmologist appointment. My vision has changed a bit but the more worrisome piece of information was he said my blood vessels looked curvy and asked me if I had high blood pressure. I didn’t think so but if your eye exam indicates you might I’ll just assume that I do. That means less salt, more exercise, reduce stress, healthier foods and less caffeine. As if I wasn’t already trying to do these for the past year .. but there’s nothing like the looming threat of heart attack or stoke to make you more motivated.

After the eye exam I had and appointment with a psychologist to go over my daughter’s testing. It was very helpful to hear what she had to say, even if it was a 2.5 hour consult  at $250.oo/hr. Ouch! Yeah, that hurt but I am working on reducing stress so (amazingly) I didn’t freak out about it. And I didn’t scarf down a pint of ice cream after leaving her office! Yay me. So, though I didn’t get to the gym (these two appointments with travel time took almost six hours) it could have been a lot worse.

Here’s what we had for dinner:photo-20

– homemade black bean and pumpkin soup
– sweet potatoes baked with honey, coconut oil and pumpkin pie spice (she put hers on her salad)
– romaine with vinaigrette, additional olive oil and avocado
– nitrate-free chicken apple sausage
(and she also had an organic pear and some water–see the core on the left?)

What did you eat for dinner? Am I the only one who tries to prepare homemade meals instead of relying heavily on processed foods?

It’s All Up to Me

Man, I have been absolutely terrible about posting to this blog and sadly I have been even worse about working towards my goal of fierceness. I am anything but. I am tired and look like crap. I have been eating cookies and processed foods and drinking coffee and not exercising at all. Before I moved back home I was playing tennis three times a week and nearly everything I ate was homemade– overseas living made that so easy with a live-in cook and $10/hr for private lessons. But back in the US and having to rely on myself and my own motivation I have slid back into my old habits; old habits from two years ago. And the results of this new way of living is I feel disgusting. As I type this I can feel the fat on my stomach and thighs bulging. It’s really gross. I have clearly put on weight in the past three months. I am also a lot less patient with my child and at work. I have cried or lashed out when stressed and I know a lot of it has to do with eating junk, not working out and trying to manage my monumental stress alone. My family has tried to offer their support financially and through conversation and that has helped but I know the onus is on me to get it together. I have started praying and meditating with more regularity and I have started to go to church. I found a tenant for my basement apartment so I have more money coming in, but I need to do so much more!  I need to create an actual budget and stick to it. I need to make meal plans and stick to them. I need to set my alarm earlier and do some exercise. I need to be better with my time and spend less time on Facebook and playing Works with Friends. I need to say no when someone offers me a donut! Most of this is my fault and I have no one to blame but myself. Yes, moving overseas creates stress; yes, saying no to junk food takes willpower; yes, getting up early to work out bites; yes, sticking to a budget is no fun; yes, single parenting is hard; yes, being the sole breadwinner is scary… All of these things are true but I have to figure out how to get to my goal without using them as an excuse.

Rough Adjustment!

Okay, quick rant: I have been extremely disappointed by food In the States. Since we STILL do not have our overseas shipment (6 weeks+ late) we have been eating out a lot. I have left restaurants multiple times with a stomach ache. Seriously, like 75% of the time! Ethiopian, BBQ, Mexican, Thai, American.. It’s crazy And really surprising. I think most of them probably  use oils we haven’t eaten for almost two years: canola oil, vegetable oil, cottonseed oil, corn oil, etc. For two years we have only been eating olive and coconut oils about 90% of the time so it could be that but it’s not necessarily that. We’ve been eating almost 100% organic and a mostly food cooked at home. And we rarely had stomach disturbances so being home and having issues is annoying and quite surprising! Just not used to it! (When I eat raw though it’s always organic and I’m not sick, bloated, gassy or lethargic at all.)

Anyhoo!! I look forward to posting more soon. I got conjunctivitis and due to my allergic reactions to something in this apartment we were able to get out of our lease. We are moving tomorrow. This weekend we will be out of town and then we start school and work next week. When we get settled and back into our routine, I will get back in the kitchen preparing home-cooked foods, doing regular juicing , exercise and updates on how fierce I am becoming! I need to update you on my (less) dry feet, new hair color, kitchen and more so please hang in there! Thanks!

Down for the Count

I’ve been away from blogging for a while because I am really sick!  Hell, I don’t know if it’s dust or dairy or stress but I feel like crap! Woke up in the middle of the night coughing, can’t sleep, sore throat, post nasal drip.. just plain run down. I haven’t eaten terribly but no energy to do much prepping and planning. Can’t wait to get well and get back on track. In preparation I have bought a food processor (for chopping nuts and dates, etc.) and a new salad spinner and exchanged my juicer because that darn thing did not like kale or celery and those are necessary components of my morning juices and smoothies. I am also excited to start working out again. Still waiting for my shipment from overseas but inside are my yoga and kettle bell tapes that I have never used but plan to when they arrive. The mindset is ready, now I just need the rest of the factors to fall into place!

Bye-Bye Dairy

I have a full-on cold. The real deal, like with phlegm and everything. I can’t remember the last time I was sick. I used to get sore throats in the tropics but I rarely had phlegm and coughing. I think the sore throats there were more due to the pollution but this seems to be directly related to poor health/compromised immune system. I find this curious because I am sleeping a lot more. I don’t feel as tired during the day so I think I must be sleeping better and my stress level has been reduced considerably. The only thing left is food! We rarely ate dairy products overseas but here I am putting yogurt in my smoothies (never did that before). Also the ice cream seems much richer here and the pizza had tons more cheese. I really think this is what it is! My daughter also has a constant runny nose that she had when we lived here before. Overseas she rarely had a runny nose.

I’m sad to say it but we are going to go (mostly) dairy-free. I will no longer buy yogurt or cheese or ice cream. Sniff. We already drink almond milk exclusively so that will stay the same and I think coconut yogurt for smoothies sounds good but there really aren’t good substitutes that I know of for cheese and ice cream. Those are going to be missed! Butter on the other hand will stay. I don’t do margarine or vegan spreads so butter stays and I am sure we will eat pizza or ice cream from time to time but I won’t buy dairy from the market anymore (again except for my beloved butter). In other words they will be reduced drastically. I am hoping this helps with my phlegm issues!

Have you noticed any health benefits when you cut out dairy?

Stress Eating and Intolerances

So mad at myself! I had a really rough day yesterday and I soothed myself with cookies and ice cream. Bad, bad, bad. One interesting thing to note however: I was extremely gassy all night. Farting like crazy. Ew, sorry. TMI. But I find it fascinating because it means I probably have a sensitivity/intolerance to either wheat or dairy. I like knowing that! I will have to test them individually to find out. I also need to figure out a better solution to stress.

Starting Over

I woke up today feeling terrible! I have terrible back pain reminiscent of how it used to feel often in the past year. I used to blame the mattress but now I’m not so sure. I didn’t have any back pain when I was eating raw. None and now it’s back. It could be partly because I feel asleep in a sugar-induced coma on the floor last night after writing my blog post and transferred to my bed in the middle of the night sometime but it could also be due to the food. But let’s be real: Falling asleep in a massive sugar-induced heap on the floor isn’t a good look!

So let’s recap. Last night for dinner I had bread with olive oil and spices and I ate one of my friend’s grilled shrimp. Then I ate my salad which was Romaine, cherry tomatoes, croutons, cucumber and dressing. For dinner I ordered grilled salmon with a Creole mustard sauce and broccoli. The broccoli was boiled to death and was mushy and had no flavor. What a travesty to ruin a delightfully, vibrant vegetable like that! I couldn’t even force my daughter to eat that it was so bad. I had 1.5 glasses of Sauvignon Blanc with it and then a double scoop of ice-cream: cookies and cream and chocolate chip.

Could it have been any worse?! Dairy. Gluten. Alcohol. Sugar!!! Who knows what the culprit was but I am paying the price. I feel bloated and gross this morning and it’s been ten hours. Back pain, bloating, grogginess, achy joints, feeling tired–not well rested at all. Sure I enjoyed just eating whatever I wanted in the moment but this feeling is so not worth it. Really. I’m going to hit the Farmer’s Market today and load up on healing, delicious raw foods and I am going to swing by Bed, Bath and Beyond and get a citrus juicer.

And here’s one more thing that makes me so mad I ate like that last night: I had planned on taking my daughter on a hike this morning. It isn’t hot or raining and we  have the time. It’s a perfect Saturday to do this but I have no energy! I feel sick! I just want to lie here and do nothing. This is no way to live! What kind of role model am I to my daughter if I eat junk and lie like a slug on the floor on a Saturday morning? I want to be the active family who eats fresh foods and bounces out the door on the weekends to do active things. If that is to happen it is up to me.

Please send some good vibes out there to the Universe for me to get back in focus. I really really do want this.